Monday, June 29, 2009

Break my heart for what breaks Yours

Woah, yesterday was another round of hmm how should i put it... Sourness?

In church, it felt like there was a cloud above my head. Whether there was thunder, i don't know. But yes, there was rain.

Well, that doesn't matter anymore, at least, for now it doesn't :)

I've school later on, what a bummer! I'm so not looking forward to it.

I mean, i didn't really get to enjoy the holidays that much -- with me being sick for the first week, tsk! Its really stupid getting sick during the holidays.

And two weeks is definitely NOT enough! Oh well... There's always a next one to look forward to!

This week, i've quite a few lessons cancelled and replaced with e learning. So it isn't so bad i guess. Time to get into the "hardworking" mode, nat. Me procrastinating over my assignments and stuff isn't going to do me any good, at all.

Oh by the way, jes' back from L.A.!!!!!!!!! :D

Its good to see her around again. She enjoyed the trip A WHOLE LOT! Which is good. Very good. Its an awesome opportunity she had there man! I wish i'd that too!

And she went to disneyland!!!!!!! ZOMGGGGGG I WANT TO GO TOO!!!!! :(

Soon it'll be my turn. My turn to go overseas and have fun like that! Hah!

She brought back little trinkets for us too, and i'm wearing it already :)

Okay now i've to go get ready for school. Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

(Still, the good thing is i know that i know we'll end early today hahhahhaha)

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

The longer the better

I'm now (desperately) praying for an extension to holidays.

I know the chances are really slim, but still.....

Pleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseee extend!!

Because i haven't really done or touched my assignments/projects :(

Dieee!!!!!!!!

And today, i'm in this very accident prone mode.

In the morning, i accidentally cut my index finger -- with my toenail. Don't ask how, its absurd.

And then i went out with a slip-on type of shoe, and guess how many blisters? -- a whopping 5!!!!!!!!!!

And i just gotta complain!! Because when i bath, its very very very painful and i'm gritting my teeth to prevent myself from screaming (i almost did)

But i think its okay though, cause in the end i got entertained by the (weak) SWD HAHHAHAHA! (I hope you don't read this, or else.. I'd be... Erm.. I'd rather not think about it!)

As for tomorrow, i feel like eating some ice-cream or chocolates!!!! I haven't had any of those for a very long long long time :(

I know i'm supposed to be doing my work now, but then i'm just reluctant!

I just want to binge binge binge + watch movies! ;)

Transformers' coming out tomorrow. And Harry Potter in July!!!

Shall end abruptly, bye!

Monday, June 22, 2009

I miss you, jes!!!!!!!!



Jes flew to L.A yesterday morning!!!!!! ZOMG I MISSS (disturbing) HER SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!! :(

Anyway i just got off the phone with her hahhahha its damn cool.

Jes: What time is it there?
Me: Err 8.
Jes: 8 in the night?
Me: No, 8 in the morning, monday!
Jes: Its 5 in the afternoon on sunday
Me: OMGGGG you're living in the past!!!!!! Come back! Come back!!

HAHHAHHAHAH!!

Glad to know that she's fine! :)

& yesterday i was really really happy, a huge contrast after a wretched saturday night.

but things like that, after one night and it'll be forgotten :)

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Walau seribu rebah

Darkness may come, trials seem so long

Through valleys and storms

I trust in You

I will stand with You

Take my all.

Monday, June 15, 2009

*sniffs*flu*sniffs*


Flufluflufluflufluuuuuuu GO AWAY!!!!!!

Anyway, my schedule's super packed this week.

This morning i had an inauguration thingy for cca. Was more of getting to know the people i guess? It wasn't too bad.

After that i went to meet my *ahem*shy*ahem*friend*ahem* HAHHHAHAHAHHHA the stuff i did to disturb/irritate; it was funny!!!

Tomorrow, gonna meet up to discuss stuff for presentation in the morning.

Then from wednesday until friday: I'll be away for camp.

Haven't really been to camp for a very long time. I just know i'm going to miss my bed, my fluffly towels, my cute dog, the very shy wd etcetc. HAHHAHAHA.

And before that, i really really hope my flu+cough+whatever sicknesses will go away by wednesday. Or else i'm just gonna be suffering a whole lot at camp, which isn't any fun, at all :(

So..... SHOO FLU SHOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Bittersweet

This whole week was a tough one for me.

Waking up early, and sleeping really late. All for that, for the entire 5 days.

That resulted in today, i'm falling sick. Sick as in feeling weak + sore throat + slight flu + feverish

Sighhhh...

So i kinda spent my day by lying in bed.

Boring!

Now i'm glad that this week's coming to an end, and i survived it. Well, kinda, minus the sick part.

This week was tough. Had ups and downs. No point mentioning the downs cause its over (and i've already forgotten what happened). But yes, its always worth mentioning the ups.

Wednesday saw the whole family going out for dinner together. Yay like finally, everyone's all seated down at one table and eating together. Since school started, i haven't really had a chance to do that. Anyway, we were able to do that cause of a special occasion -- its my parents' 20th wedding anniversary. So.. Yeah.







***

Don't know what's the future going to be like, but one thing's for sure: it wouldn't just be a bed of roses. Now i know, it will never be easy. But its a different thing if you know whom to depend on.

I'm afraid, afraid of taking another step. Afraid of going out into the open. Because if i did, what if it doesn't work out the way i imagined it should be like? I'm afraid of another ______.

But its kinda too late now, i realised. I'm already halfway out into the open. Might as well go all the way out? If i don't try i'll never know.

Won't.Let.Go.Now.

I'll do whatever it takes to hang on.

Unless you decide to pull the plug, once and for all? Then....

***

Crap i don't know what i'm talking about. Must be the sicknesss sinking in and getting to me.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Hit the pause button

Another week flew by. Again.

I think things are running by too quickly. Too quick for me to analyze/evaluate them.

I hardly have the time to actually sit down and think. I like thinking about stuff. And when i think i look as if i'm stoning. So now you know, when i'm stoning = i'm thinking hard about something.

But there's a downside to it though. And you what they always say, its not good to think too much.

After this line, you won't understand what i'm talking about already. Its going to be in circles.

***

Okay anyway, as of this moment, i'm thinking about yesterday.

For the whole time, i'm trying to figure out whether i'm in a spring/winter period. Which is it? I don't know. It feels like both. One moment i'm like, winter period was last year. I remember how horrible last year was. Don't want to go into details but i just know, i was pleading very hard with my parents to let me go off to poly.

And the spring came, which is, actually getting into this course itself. And me enjoying.

Now comes the wintery part, again. Sometimes i feel lost, no i don't think its lost. But i don't know. Ah, i know. I'm still hiding. Scared to come out i guess.

So yesterday, with the Faltering love, i understood. Because i think its EXACTLY the same thing i'm going through right now.

I want need to step out.

Another thing i'm thinking about are relational issues.

In my heart, i'm telling Him, i won't say yes without Your 'Yes'. Give me a sign. Send someone to talk to me please!!

Still, i'm happy that i've someone i can talk to, someone i know that cares, still, i'm not sure. So yeah, i'll just wait and see. I've this tiny feeling that it might just work out. Gahh, actually, i don't know! :/

***

And now, i'm very relieved its saturday. Yesterday i knocked out pretty quick. This morning i got up quite early, went to accompany edi to the interview thingy at HPB. I ended up going for it too =.= But anyway i went for fun, and its all in the name of experience! HAHAHHAH.

After that i went straight home. And that's where i am now. I feel like watching movies again!! I haven't watched Night at the Museum 2 yet :(

Speaking of movies, i caught Terminator Salvation last week.



I thought it was kinda hmm, lacking of a proper storyline maybe? Most of the time i was feeling all lost, don't really know what's happening with all that cg/special effects of fire, smoke, bombs, guns, whatever. But i have to admit that some of the effects in there were pretty cool though. Hah.

And during the movie, i was thinking, hmm, terminator, terminator... Where's Arnold Schwarzenegger?! And he did appear towards the end, naked (you'll know what i'm talking about if you've watched) I was like, =.= wth, okaaaaaayyyyyy....

So i think the movie's kinda disappointing :(

***

I don't know what to do now, with the weather so hot!! Actually i wanted to go swimming, but i don't think its a good idea now.

I only know, watching that movie is a very good idea :D

Well other than that, i can go find some korean/jap dramas to watch. Its not a bad idea too!

Okay then, i'll be off now, bye ya'll (:

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

34℃ - and rising.

Okay its reaaaaally reaaaaally hot now.

34℃ can you believe that?!?!??!??! :(

Oh i loveloveloveloveloveee this fb quiz i did! :D
Nathasha completed the quiz "What Japanese Mascot Are You?" with the result Nyan Nyan Nyanko.

Master of disguise! You are curious but fickle, and get bored of the same things usually. You have a strange obsession with food that no one really understands...but you are happy in life and people think you are adorable! In fact, many people would pay big bucks just to get their hands on you!
I think its really really cute! And kinda true as well, especially with the strange obsession with food part! And the adorable part too! HAHAHHAHHAHAH :P

So i went to google it:



SO UBER CUTEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

& I realised, its actually the cute characters i have on my folder all these while since sec 3! Let me show you!!


HEHHEHHEHHEHHEHHE YAY (Y)

Edi's result got her this: a depressed, burnt bread roll

AHHAHHAHHHAHHA!!!!!!!!!!! Poor kid, she really is.

& tonight, i've to work on advert! Super lazy can! :(