Thursday, July 30, 2009


Blogger's such a pain in the butt.

Hence my decision to move (in the morning, just now)

Now after i've moved, everything's back to normal. WTH

Moved to wordpress, people.


Sunday, July 26, 2009

Dated 26th July

Today gotta be the last day.

Today i made this decision.

And i'm sticking with it with all my heart, with all of me.

Its engraved inside; "consider my feelings and its impacts on me when you do something"

I gotta stop this stupid cycle.

I'm ending it.


Hello cherrypickk!

Nat's okay! :)

I'll update soon, promise!

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

This is insane

Advertising makes nat go nuts.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Almost tangible

Ahh, that feeling when you've your favourite song (of 7 years to be exact) suddenly coming up on the playlist.

Friday, July 10, 2009

They wander off

Hello blog! It seems i haven't been pouring out much stuff this week.

Well, as usual, there's been a whole lot of work to do. Need better time management. Need to stop procrastination and the "i've-no-mood-for-it" :/

Been having a whole lot of stuff to think about. It felt like i was in a whirlwind. But i'm okay, don't worry! I really appreciate the concern from you guys -- aka my classmates. Thank you :)

& Thank you Wd. For doing all the insane&crazy stuffs together with me. Its just insaaaaane!! Its good entertainment. More than that, good company, too ;)

Weekends are here. Hurray!! (Not like it'll make any difference with the work i have to complete)

Still, its so much better than weekdays. It feels better :)

Now i don't know what i'm talking about! Gosh!! :O

Maybe i'm too tired :/

Monday, July 6, 2009

Slapped hard, by reality

Reality sinked in today.

Did some soul-searching.

After almost 18 years in my life never had i thought about this in such a way. Never thought about this perspective. I think i was mostly ignorant. Maybe thats why.

Well today. I got woken up.

I gotta admit i've always been too self-centered. My world = Me myself and I.

And that is a terrible thing.

I think i've probably sighed at least a hundred times today. Up to the point whereby grandma was asking me why i was sighing so much.

The reason why?

I guess i'm ashamed.

I was always the kind who expected others to give in, ALL THE TIME.

And i thought i was always right (I thought wrong, by the way)

But then this came along.

And deep down, i'm very grateful actually. Thank you for helping me to realise my mistakes. I can't really guarantee/promise that i won't let you down again. Wouldn't want to go in the direction of empty promises.

I really need to learn to put myself in others' shoes. Cliché, i know. But that's what i need to do.

And words, they are merely words. Sometimes powerful, yes. But actions do really speak louder than words (Cliché #2)

Now i know the purpose why our paths crossed again. Its because of this.

I will change.
And i'll show you how.

Friday, July 3, 2009

Saturation point

First week of school after two week break: Getting very drained out :(

Yesterday i had barely enough sleep cause there were assignments due today that i haven't done. So i ended up staying up very late, and waking up early to continue and finish it up.

But at least its done. Thats the good part :)

And now, i'm in school. Just got up from a short 15 minutes nap. I'm going to have a test later. A test which i haven't really studied for. Hopefully it'll work out somehow :/

I'm just really tired now.

All i feel like doing, is to binge on comfort food. CHOCOLATES! & ICE-CREAM!

But from this i know what i should be relying on. I know.

Sometimes, if you don't feel like doing something, its a sign that all the more you should be doing it. (Just a random thought)

And tonight'll be really good too. I just hope i'm prepared and open enough though.

I need You. I can't rely on anyone else (in this world)

But come to think about it, its kinda too early to get drained, its only the 2nd month.

Go NAT! :)

Monday, June 29, 2009

Break my heart for what breaks Yours

Woah, yesterday was another round of hmm how should i put it... Sourness?

In church, it felt like there was a cloud above my head. Whether there was thunder, i don't know. But yes, there was rain.

Well, that doesn't matter anymore, at least, for now it doesn't :)

I've school later on, what a bummer! I'm so not looking forward to it.

I mean, i didn't really get to enjoy the holidays that much -- with me being sick for the first week, tsk! Its really stupid getting sick during the holidays.

And two weeks is definitely NOT enough! Oh well... There's always a next one to look forward to!

This week, i've quite a few lessons cancelled and replaced with e learning. So it isn't so bad i guess. Time to get into the "hardworking" mode, nat. Me procrastinating over my assignments and stuff isn't going to do me any good, at all.

Oh by the way, jes' back from L.A.!!!!!!!!! :D

Its good to see her around again. She enjoyed the trip A WHOLE LOT! Which is good. Very good. Its an awesome opportunity she had there man! I wish i'd that too!

And she went to disneyland!!!!!!! ZOMGGGGGG I WANT TO GO TOO!!!!! :(

Soon it'll be my turn. My turn to go overseas and have fun like that! Hah!

She brought back little trinkets for us too, and i'm wearing it already :)

Okay now i've to go get ready for school. Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

(Still, the good thing is i know that i know we'll end early today hahhahhaha)

Saturday, June 27, 2009