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Blogger's such a pain in the butt.

Hence my decision to move (in the morning, just now)

Now after i've moved, everything's back to normal. WTH

Moved to wordpress, people.

Bye

Dated 26th July

Today gotta be the last day.

Today i made this decision.

And i'm sticking with it with all my heart, with all of me.

Its engraved inside; "consider my feelings and its impacts on me when you do something"

I gotta stop this stupid cycle.

I'm ending it.

Today.

Hello cherrypickk!

Nat's okay! :)

I'll update soon, promise!

This is insane

Advertising makes nat go nuts.

Almost tangible

Ahh, that feeling when you've your favourite song (of 7 years to be exact) suddenly coming up on the playlist.

They wander off

Hello blog! It seems i haven't been pouring out much stuff this week.

Well, as usual, there's been a whole lot of work to do. Need better time management. Need to stop procrastination and the "i've-no-mood-for-it" :/

Been having a whole lot of stuff to think about. It felt like i was in a whirlwind. But i'm okay, don't worry! I really appreciate the concern from you guys -- aka my classmates. Thank you :)

& Thank you Wd. For doing all the insane&crazy stuffs together with me. Its just insaaaaane!! Its good entertainment. More than that, good company, too ;)

Weekends are here. Hurray!! (Not like it'll make any difference with the work i have to complete)

Still, its so much better than weekdays. It feels better :)

Now i don't know what i'm talking about! Gosh!! :O

Maybe i'm too tired :/

Slapped hard, by reality

Reality sinked in today.

Did some soul-searching.

After almost 18 years in my life never had i thought about this in such a way. Never thought about this perspective. I think i was mostly ignorant. Maybe thats why.

Well today. I got woken up.

I gotta admit i've always been too self-centered. My world = Me myself and I.

And that is a terrible thing.

I think i've probably sighed at least a hundred times today. Up to the point whereby grandma was asking me why i was sighing so much.

The reason why?

I guess i'm ashamed.

I was always the kind who expected others to give in, ALL THE TIME.

And i thought i was always right (I thought wrong, by the way)

But then this came along.

And deep down, i'm very grateful actually. Thank you for helping me to realise my mistakes. I can't really guarantee/promise that i won't let you down again. Wouldn't want to go in the direction of empty promises.

I really need to learn to put myself in others' shoes. Cliché, i know. But that's what i need to do.

And words, they are merely words. Sometimes powerful, yes. But actions do really speak louder than words (Cliché #2)

Now i know the purpose why our paths crossed again. Its because of this.

I will change. And i'll show you how.

Saturation point

First week of school after two week break: Getting very drained out :(

Yesterday i had barely enough sleep cause there were assignments due today that i haven't done. So i ended up staying up very late, and waking up early to continue and finish it up.

But at least its done. Thats the good part :)

And now, i'm in school. Just got up from a short 15 minutes nap. I'm going to have a test later. A test which i haven't really studied for. Hopefully it'll work out somehow :/

I'm just really tired now.

All i feel like doing, is to binge on comfort food. CHOCOLATES! & ICE-CREAM!

But from this i know what i should be relying on. I know.

Sometimes, if you don't feel like doing something, its a sign that all the more you should be doing it. (Just a random thought)

And tonight'll be really good too. I just hope i'm prepared and open enough though.

I need You. I can't rely on anyone else (in this world)

But come to think about it, its kinda too early to get drained, its only the 2nd month.

Go NAT! :)

Break my heart for what breaks Yours

Woah, yesterday was another round of hmm how should i put it... Sourness?

In church, it felt like there was a cloud above my head. Whether there was thunder, i don't know. But yes, there was rain.

Well, that doesn't matter anymore, at least, for now it doesn't :)

I've school later on, what a bummer! I'm so not looking forward to it.

I mean, i didn't really get to enjoy the holidays that much -- with me being sick for the first week, tsk! Its really stupid getting sick during the holidays.

And two weeks is definitely NOT enough! Oh well... There's always a next one to look forward to!

This week, i've quite a few lessons cancelled and replaced with e learning. So it isn't so bad i guess. Time to get into the "hardworking" mode, nat. Me procrastinating over my assignments and stuff isn't going to do me any good, at all.

Oh by the way, jes' back from L.A.!!!!!!!!! :D

Its good to see her around again. She enjoyed the trip A WHOLE LOT! Which is good. Very good. Its an awesome opportunity she had there man! I wish i'd that too!

And she went to disneyland!!!!!!! ZOMGGGGGG I WANT TO GO TOO!!!!! :(

Soon it'll be my turn. My turn to go overseas and have fun like that! Hah!

She brought back little trinkets for us too, and i'm wearing it already :)

Okay now i've to go get ready for school. Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

(Still, the good thing is i know that i know we'll end early today hahhahhaha)

My fault, i know.

Why?

The longer the better

I'm now (desperately) praying for an extension to holidays.

I know the chances are really slim, but still.....

Pleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseee extend!!

Because i haven't really done or touched my assignments/projects :(

Dieee!!!!!!!!

And today, i'm in this very accident prone mode.

In the morning, i accidentally cut my index finger -- with my toenail. Don't ask how, its absurd.

And then i went out with a slip-on type of shoe, and guess how many blisters? -- a whopping 5!!!!!!!!!!

And i just gotta complain!! Because when i bath, its very very very painful and i'm gritting my teeth to prevent myself from screaming (i almost did)

But i think its okay though, cause in the end i got entertained by the (weak) SWD HAHHAHAHA! (I hope you don't read this, or else.. I'd be... Erm.. I'd rather not think about it!)

As for tomorrow, i feel like eating some ice-cream or chocolates!!!! I haven't had any of those for a very long long long time :(

I know i'm supposed to be doing my work now, but then i'm just reluctant!

I just want to binge binge binge + watch movies! ;)

Transformers' coming out tomorrow. And Harry Potter in July!!!

Shall end abruptly, bye!

I miss you, jes!!!!!!!!

Jes flew to L.A yesterday morning!!!!!! ZOMG I MISSS (disturbing) HER SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!! :(

Anyway i just got off the phone with her hahhahha its damn cool.

Jes: What time is it there?
Me: Err 8.
Jes: 8 in the night?
Me: No, 8 in the morning, monday!
Jes: Its 5 in the afternoon on sunday
Me: OMGGGG you're living in the past!!!!!! Come back! Come back!!

HAHHAHHAHAH!!

Glad to know that she's fine! :)

& yesterday i was really really happy, a huge contrast after a wretched saturday night.

but things like that, after one night and it'll be forgotten :)

Walau seribu rebah

Darkness may come, trials seem so long

Through valleys and storms

I trust in You

I will stand with You

Take my all.

*sniffs*flu*sniffs*

Flufluflufluflufluuuuuuu GO AWAY!!!!!!

Anyway, my schedule's super packed this week.

This morning i had an inauguration thingy for cca. Was more of getting to know the people i guess? It wasn't too bad.

After that i went to meet my *ahem*shy*ahem*friend*ahem* HAHHHAHAHAHHHA the stuff i did to disturb/irritate; it was funny!!!

Tomorrow, gonna meet up to discuss stuff for presentation in the morning.

Then from wednesday until friday: I'll be away for camp.

Haven't really been to camp for a very long time. I just know i'm going to miss my bed, my fluffly towels, my cute dog, the very shy wd etcetc. HAHHAHAHA.

And before that, i really really hope my flu+cough+whatever sicknesses will go away by wednesday. Or else i'm just gonna be suffering a whole lot at camp, which isn't any fun, at all :(

So..... SHOO FLU SHOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

Bittersweet, part II

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Bittersweet

This whole week was a tough one for me.

Waking up early, and sleeping really late. All for that, for the entire 5 days.

That resulted in today, i'm falling sick. Sick as in feeling weak + sore throat + slight flu + feverish

Sighhhh...

So i kinda spent my day by lying in bed.

Boring!

Now i'm glad that this week's coming to an end, and i survived it. Well, kinda, minus the sick part.

This week was tough. Had ups and downs. No point mentioning the downs cause its over (and i've already forgotten what happened). But yes, its always worth mentioning the ups.

Wednesday saw the whole family going out for dinner together. Yay like finally, everyone's all seated down at one table and eating together. Since school started, i haven't really had a chance to do that. Anyway, we were able to do that cause of a special occasion -- its my parents' 20th wedding anniversary. So.. Yeah.







***

Don't know what's the future going to be like, but one thing's for sure: it wouldn't just be a bed of roses. Now i know, it will never be easy. But its a different thing if you know whom to depend on.

I'm afraid, afraid of taking another step. Afraid of going out into the open. Because if i did, what if it doesn't work out the way i imagined it should be like? I'm afraid of another ______.

But its kinda too late now, i realised. I'm already halfway out into the open. Might as well go all the way out? If i don't try i'll never know.

Won't.Let.Go.Now.

I'll do whatever it takes to hang on.

Unless you decide to pull the plug, once and for all? Then....

***

Crap i don't know what i'm talking about. Must be the sicknesss sinking in and getting to me.

Hit the pause button

Another week flew by. Again.

I think things are running by too quickly. Too quick for me to analyze/evaluate them.

I hardly have the time to actually sit down and think. I like thinking about stuff. And when i think i look as if i'm stoning. So now you know, when i'm stoning = i'm thinking hard about something.

But there's a downside to it though. And you what they always say, its not good to think too much.

After this line, you won't understand what i'm talking about already. Its going to be in circles.

***

Okay anyway, as of this moment, i'm thinking about yesterday.

For the whole time, i'm trying to figure out whether i'm in a spring/winter period. Which is it? I don't know. It feels like both. One moment i'm like, winter period was last year. I remember how horrible last year was. Don't want to go into details but i just know, i was pleading very hard with my parents to let me go off to poly.

And the spring came, which is, actually getting into this course itself. And me enjoying.

Now comes the wintery part, again. Sometimes i feel lost, no i don't think its lost. But i don't know. Ah, i know. I'm still hiding. Scared to come out i guess.

So yesterday, with the Faltering love, i understood. Because i think its EXACTLY the same thing i'm going through right now.

I want need to step out.

Another thing i'm thinking about are relational issues.

In my heart, i'm telling Him, i won't say yes without Your 'Yes'. Give me a sign. Send someone to talk to me please!!

Still, i'm happy that i've someone i can talk to, someone i know that cares, still, i'm not sure. So yeah, i'll just wait and see. I've this tiny feeling that it might just work out. Gahh, actually, i don't know! :/

***

And now, i'm very relieved its saturday. Yesterday i knocked out pretty quick. This morning i got up quite early, went to accompany edi to the interview thingy at HPB. I ended up going for it too =.= But anyway i went for fun, and its all in the name of experience! HAHAHHAH.

After that i went straight home. And that's where i am now. I feel like watching movies again!! I haven't watched Night at the Museum 2 yet :(

Speaking of movies, i caught Terminator Salvation last week.



I thought it was kinda hmm, lacking of a proper storyline maybe? Most of the time i was feeling all lost, don't really know what's happening with all that cg/special effects of fire, smoke, bombs, guns, whatever. But i have to admit that some of the effects in there were pretty cool though. Hah.

And during the movie, i was thinking, hmm, terminator, terminator... Where's Arnold Schwarzenegger?! And he did appear towards the end, naked (you'll know what i'm talking about if you've watched) I was like, =.= wth, okaaaaaayyyyyy....

So i think the movie's kinda disappointing :(

***

I don't know what to do now, with the weather so hot!! Actually i wanted to go swimming, but i don't think its a good idea now.

I only know, watching that movie is a very good idea :D

Well other than that, i can go find some korean/jap dramas to watch. Its not a bad idea too!

Okay then, i'll be off now, bye ya'll (:

34℃ - and rising.

Okay its reaaaaally reaaaaally hot now.

34℃ can you believe that?!?!??!??! :(

Oh i loveloveloveloveloveee this fb quiz i did! :D

Nathasha completed the quiz "What Japanese Mascot Are You?" with the result Nyan Nyan Nyanko.

Master of disguise! You are curious but fickle, and get bored of the same things usually. You have a strange obsession with food that no one really understands...but you are happy in life and people think you are adorable! In fact, many people would pay big bucks just to get their hands on you!

I think its really really cute! And kinda true as well, especially with the strange obsession with food part! And the adorable part too! HAHAHHAHHAHAH :P

So i went to google it:



SO UBER CUTEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

& I realised, its actually the cute characters i have on my folder all these while since sec 3! Let me show you!!

HEHHEHHEHHEHHEHHE YAY (Y)

Edi's result got her this: a depressed, burnt bread roll

AHHAHHAHHHAHHA!!!!!!!!!!! Poor kid, she really is.

& tonight, i've to work on advert! Super lazy can! :(

Hello, you little stalkers!

Just take a look at that. The sudden increase by 16 times, comparing between 16:00 / 17:00.

And look at this!!!!


(Click to enlarge)

I have visitors all the way from Romania, WOWWWWW.

HAHHAHAHHAHHAA.

Stalkers? Hmmmmmm......

Replenish; recharge!

Came home earlier today after church. Reason being: I'm still super duper duper tired.

So i skipped the idea to go to the museum with my parents (my mum had this sudden interest to go)

Right after i came home, i grabbed cessy and put her on my lap. Somehow... I fell asleep on the sofa with her. Awwwwww.... I love my dog, she's an awesome companion in the lonely afternoons! :D


Here's a picture of her looking all neat & tidy after getting groomed the other day :D

Okay anyway the past week, as you know, is pretty tiring. And i'm kinda tired of repeating that i'm tired so after this sentence i will not say i'm tired anymore.

I think last week's a sneak peek into how my next 3 years is going to be like. Now comes the bad part: Its just the beginning. Uh oh....

But if you think about it really hard, i got into an awesome class with and they're all a friendly and supportive bunch! With that, i know that i'll have someone to turn to :)

Last thursday saw an emotional day for me. In the morning, and during class. Tell you what we did during class.

We were given sheets of paper. And markers.

And we had to draw/write out what we were feeling when the teacher asked questions.

The questions she asked were about the stages we have gone through so far to get here. And it was basically childhood, primary school, secondary school and poly (add a jc for me)

And hmmm, when it comes to emotions i know that i know, i'm not good when it comes to handling such stuff -- Its either i bottle it up inside, or pour it all out.

When i get the chance to pour it out, it would be EVERYTHING coming out altogether. That was what happened. I let it out, onto 4 sheets of paper. But you should see my scribblings man! Even i think its scary!

I still haven't learnt how to not bottle things up :(

Anyway, its not a big deal. For now.

AND NOW!!! I'm binging on chocolates my comfort food!!!!!! ❤


Heh, thanks WD! ;)

To the week ahead: Please let it be a smooth one! I've a lot of things i want to do!!

"What's worth the prize is always worth the fight" - If today was your last day (Nickelback)

Love that song!

I need more sleep, i do.

Look at the time now.

Slept at 12 midnight, been up not long ago, (desperately) trying to put the slides together.

Tired.

Its getting harder, i need to get stronger

Hmmmm.... Lets see, for this week: Two presentations due wednesday. One isn't really a presentation its more like a weekly progress thing. Grr whatever, its just two things i need to complete. Which is the reason why i'm always not getting enough sleep :(

But we all are complaining about being stressed. I know why. Actually its only 2 things to complete. Its just that, when its due on the same day that the workload for the previous night prior to submission would be doubled.

I keep telling myself: Don't panic. DON'T!

And i hope, HOPE *with fingers crossed* that by wednesday i'll be able to sleep earlier. It does help that i start at 1pm on thursdays.

& tomorrow!! Long day tomorrow, i've this lecture test being added on after my 4pm dismissal.

Need to settle the stuff for wednesday = sleeping late (again)

Well okay.... I don't know why i'm blogging but i just feel compelled to do so.

I need to go to sleep now, i've promised someone i would, asap ;)

Bizzare day, it was.

Today at church, two words: SET FREE!

Inside, i feel relief, i feel lightness. Different experience today, i'd most probably remember it. For life.

After that, went for this massage. OMG MAN IT WAS PAIN TO THE MAX. LIKE REALLY MAXXXXXXX!!!!!!!!!! (cos irene ended up crying)

Then i ended up feeling really tired, tired that i fell asleep on the train and only woke up after irene tapped me when its time to leave the train.

Now, i'm feeling like super moody, and i don't want to do anything.. I know there's tons of work to be done, just waiting there for me to go complete it. But no, i don't feel like it i really don't!

There's another reason to that, too.

And i've just spilled it out to E on msn/C on fb. So now, i'm kinda feeling much much better. Still, there's this little part of me that's veryveryvery errr, moody? (Cos the situation's not solved yet, you see...)

I just hope, after tuesday, things can be resolved.

Because if this goes on, its going to do no one any good. Its an all lose situation.

And if it isn't resolved, i'll just be getting more angry on the inside (though i may not seem angry) But yes!! Thats the truth.

I also know, being angry is bad. Scandalon y'knw? Nevermind if you don't understand.. But yeah.

The bottomline is being angry is just bad. And i don't want to be!! Especially after what i've let go of this morning!!!!!!!!!!! :(

Its like, in less than a day i'm already starting to let it get a foothold in my heart (yet again)

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Okay at the end of the day, i'm just going to leave my feelings here.

I shouldn't let it affect me. Its not doing me any good.

So.......... THIS WEEK!! I want to watch a movie/eatb&j's!! Anyone freeee? ;)

Reaaaally happy!! (Y)(Y)

Hello hello! I've just got off the phone from hann darl not long ago. Was telling her about *ahemahemahemitsasecret!! HAHHAHHAH

OOOOMGGGGG!!!! ;)
(I think i almost hyperventilated. Wait. I think i did! HAHHAHAHH)

& anyway, happy 17th birthday Michelle!!!

I think the class went crazy today. Everyone's camwhoring and all that. Hahha its awesome. We had a darn good laugh too.

& here i am, at riverwalk.

I haven't eaten dinner too. Hungryyyyyy.....

Tomorrow's friday!! TGIF!! :D

I haven't got much to update, just getting quite bored, so i decided to blog. Hah!

OHHHHHHHHH AND YOU KNOW WHAT!

American Idol: Kris Allen won instead of Adam!!!!!!!

I don't care if he's (Adam) gay! I just like him (and his voice)!!

Awwwwww :((((((

AAAAAARRRRGHHHHHH!!!

Bagai mana ni? AKU MAMPUS LAAAAA. Benar2 mampus!!!!!

Knpa ya? Ku gak mau!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

Freaked out alr! TTM!!!!!!!!

Time check: 1:23:40AM

Still very wide awake.

Don't understand why. WHY AHHHHHHH!!!!!

And its not as easy as pressing the "ESC" button.

Project research isn't that easy too. Information's not accessible and that IS really annoying.

I'm getting busier too.

Wed (later today) - Soc psy project after school + dinner
Thurs - Riverwalk
Fri - CG
Sat - Some workshop thing
Sun - Church + R&R! (Y)(Y)

At such an indecent hour

The title says it all, still awake. Well, its all thanks to the IS reflection on maternity leave. Boring topic, so its really hard to write about! Took me like forever mannn. But yes, i'm finally done with it!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYY (Y)(Y)

I'll show you something now. Accidentally scratched my leg somehow on friday, with my nails. And it actually bled -__-" And the ironic thing was, i just cut my nails prior to that! ZZZZZZZ


AHHAHHAH hairy leg + wound = sad face D:

Oh and today, managed to catch A&D @ Lido.



And i think the movie was pretty good! It was fast paced all the way, you can tell from the background music. It has the violins playing increasingly fast and that makes you anxious (well, kinda) Anyway, i really really loved the background music by Hans Zimmer. I think he's super talented can!

Okay back to the storyline, it had a few gory bits (i.e. a bloodied eyeball plucked out of the sockets and left lying on the floor) I was like, EWWW. And oh, the twists inside this movie wasn't too predictable, so that makes a good movie for me.

Spoiler: I almost teared when the Carmerlengo took the explosive antimatter with him and flew it in a helicopter into space (he sacrificed himself!!!)

But i think it'd be confusing for those who hasn't read the book before, and it might seem stupid because all he was doing is to spewing out historical facts one after another. I think the timeline in the movie's kinda weird too. Everything solved in a night. Hmmmmmm...

Other than that, another thing i love is the beautiful sceneries of the Vatican city/Rome. And the scenes in the church itself were also nice. It makes me want to visit Rome!! But it isn't any better when mumsie told us that she actually went there (& Paris/London/Europe) before during her honeymoon. I want to tour europe too!! Someday, i guess.......

Its getting late now, i think i should turn in! G'night! :)

Catching up with nonsense!

Helluuuuuuu ya'll! I'm really really happy today!!! :DD

Highlights: CATCHING UP WITH NONSENSE AKA HANN DARL!! ♥
♥
Anyway, it was a short one. Still, it was good. Managed to talk quite abit. Good to know she's doing quite well. And we both miss each other's nonsense! Its never the same with someone else!!! :(

Next time, i'll drop by pj or sth. Gotta go to town too!

Oh well, the good thing was, we still kept in touch!
(Now i know her little secret, hehhehehhhehe)

Okay, and then we camwhored! WOO!








***

& yesterday!! Had a great day too! :)

First, school ended early, like hmmm, at 12nn. AWESOMEEEE!!






And after we stayed behind in class to slack around, michelle, siti, crys and i went down to holland v for lunch! & goshhhhhh we took a whole lot of pictures too!

Hmm, after lunch @ swensens, we were actually planning to head down to cold rock for ice cream. But then, it was interrupted by this guy from a hair salon, he needed people to "train" his skills on, so free haircut. He approached us, and we were like, hmmmmmmm.. Kinda skeptical about it.

In the end, michelle agreed to do it. So off to the salon we went. And we spent like about 3 hours there staring at the people doing their hair. But seriously, at first we thought it was going to be like only 15 minutes or so. Then we were almost falling asleep there.

After the cut, we headed down to cold rock, but then decided not to eat. Haaaa. And we went back after that.

It was fun hanging out with them! I love my friendly bunch of classmates, they're awesome! :)

***

Now backtracking to thursday.

Yes thursday!! I've to say, it was THE MOST RANDOM DAY EVERRRR!! (no kidding!)

And it all started with someone tagging me (on facebook) with the P6 class picture. So i went to see, i was like ewwwwww was that really me?!??!??!? Okay anyway, by the time i got there, the comments started already. And i went: OMGGGGGGGGGG

Then i went away after for dinner. And i realised by the time i came back the comment thread just got longerrr and longerrr. Then we moved it to msn. I think there were like about 18+ people in that conversation, just adding more and more people.

Here's the ironic thing: We haven't been in contact for like 6 years?!??! (Yes, ZERO contact) Well, with the exception for a few of those that came into the same sec school as me. Even so, we were just hi-and-bye friends. And out of a sudden, we all just started talking and reminiscing. How funny eh?!?

SUPER RANDOM TTM!!

I was in that conversation for about 3 hours i guess. Till i remembered i still have to get up early for school the next day, so i left.

But anyway for that 3 hours i think i didnt talk much. Just hahhah-ing around here and there. And mostly trying to recall who's who, trying to match my memories with their faces. Was trying really hard. In the end, only managed to remembered a few. And some i went like: Whoa i know that person, but i never knew he/she was in my class before.

I think its a good thing really. Its nice to finally get to know them. Cause in pri sch i think i kept to myself a whole lot. So i didn't really have much memories about my pri sch days. Didn't really interact much. Just contented with one or two best friends and that was it.

And i think since thursday, i'm only mainly talking to them (my pri sch friends)

Up till now, the comment thread's still ongoing, about 200+ comments! GOODNESS!

Actually, this fulfilled my secret wish of wanting to keep in contact with my pri sch friends.

And this wish came about because both edi & irene are very much in contact with their own pri sch mates. And me? Zero, zilch! But now, its different already. Haahhahaha ;)

I hope we all meet up soon! But it'll kinda be awkward somehow, don't you think? Still, its better than nothing right?

***

It still isn't the end of post. HAHHAHAHA. Its cessy-mania for the next segment!

Don't you think my little (fat) dog's the cutest thing? ;)




HAHHAH super-dog wannabe!




Proof of abuse caught on camera! :O







Notice the expression on both cess & me. HAHAHHHAHAH!



Okay, enough of those! So far, i'm doing really good at school (i think!) And i've still an essay to complete. Hmm, actually its a reflection but gahh! Its all the same. Only two paragraphs so far. I'll continue tomorrow! :P

Tomorrow i also want to watch Angels & Demons! Heard it was good from many people. Edi and jes went to watch it alrdy zzzz. So tomorrow! I'll get mumsie to go with me :)

I think i should try doing another paragraph by tonight.

Hmmmmm.....

Shall end here. Bye :)

The grey clouds blown away..

Third post today.

Hehhehe, all of a sudden, the grey, thick, thundering cloud that seemed to be hovering on top of my head for the entire day today has disappeared! ;)

Hmm, a possible reason could be that i've kinda (& also not really) completed the project thing we're supposed to do up by tomorrow. I think its like 80% done? We've going to have our tutorial at Mac. HAHHHAHA coooool. No, actually, not really. We've got a market survey to do. And that! Reminds me of pw all over again (I remember faking the information. Hah!) But nahh, can't do that now..

And today!! Goodness. In PR lecture. Super cold + super bored. Started doodling on my notes. Actually, i kinda promised myself not to doodle.. But for today.... Really couldn't stand it.

During lunch today. Was good. The whole class went over to SIM to eat. Occupied an entire row of tables. And with that, we were laughing away, having a pretty good time! I think i laughed until my facial muscles are like cramped. HAHHAAHHA. I like-e! :D

Its awesome to have a day ending well. Especially when it started badly..

Imma go have sleep soon i guess! Need more sleeeeep!! Heh g'night! :)

"We will sing, sing, sing
And make music with the heavens"

Heavy eyelids

Slept at 1 last night.. Or was it 2?? Don't really remember. All i know is i've only about 3+ hours of sleep. No more 7/8 hours!! HOW!! :(

I'm just waiting for time to pass by, and then i'll get out of the house to go to school.

I'm feeling really tired now. Maybe i should bring some toothpicks along. Y'knw, to put at the eyes to prevent it from closing.

Today, i'm hoping that everything will go on smoothly. No hiccups, no boring lectures (hopefully) and tonight! GOTTA.SLEEP.EARLIER!! But come to think about it, i don't think i can. I've more work just waiting to be completed. Actually, it isn't any hard work. The hard part comes in when researching.. The information is hard to get!! Sighh..

I think imma get some coffee for me later :/

& OHHHHHHHHH!!!! I'm gonna meet Hann too!! Super excited for that one ;)

Now..... I'll be off. G'bye!

Take a breather, N.

Q: Now that i'm starting to get frustrated, what should i do?

a) Throw everything aside, and go to sleep! (who cares?!!?)
b) Get angsty!
c) Kill the source of frustration
d) All of the above
e) ENDURE !! (Afterall, its only the beginning)

AAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH! :(

Why do i get this feeling.. This feeling that this test/trial will last 3 years?

One thing i know though. I won't be alone, there'll definitely be people i can depend on!

For starters: Anyone out there??????

Its starting to get heavier

Yesterday was mother's day! Went out for lunch @ Iluma, the new mall at Bugis.

That mall was pretty deserted. But the shops inside had so many opening sales.

Anyway, we ate at The Manhattan Fish Market. First time eating there. I like the ambience of the place. There's also this tv showing a documentary. And i think half the time we were looking at it instead of really concentrating on eating the food.






Oh look! There's a picture of the main dish. Very very similar to Fish&Co.'s seafood platter for two. Okay, actually, its the same. Same as in, they have the dory fish, prawns, mussels and squid rings.

Love the dory fish! Its so soft. Mmmmm... But then, i prefer the rice from Fish&Co. Its much more fragrant there and they even added raisins in.

And hmm, another thing that is better here, they have nice desserts!! Edi had the tiramisu. Its so good that there was only one left (initially jes&irene wanted it too) As for me, i had a mud pie!


Don't you think it looks awesome?!?!?! I love it. Its in a really big portion too! Double yay! :D

Oh, and when i was going into the mall, check out what i spotted:


YESSSSSSS! A tokidoki wall mural!! OMG if they opened a store there i'd be sosososo happyyyy! And i'd definitely go patronize it (when i've enough ka-ching) Its EXPENSIVEEE! :(


This is irene&me, at grandma's house after dinner :)

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That aside, it was a happy sunday. That is, happy until i realised i've an assignment yet to be completed. I stayed up until 2 just to do it, and then i went brain dead.

With that over already, i still have to complete a few more assignments. Having a 10% deduction to a project over a minor matter isn't helping. I find it ridiculous. But sighh, what to do? We've got no choice but to buck up and work harder than the rest to make up for that loss.

Sometimes, i think i worry too much. I get worried about every single thing there is to worry about for school.

But i've to get that thought outta my head. Too much worrying ain't that good.

And no, i don't think its stress. Even if it was, i'd rather die than admit it i guess?

Or maybe it could be PMS?? HAHHAHA. I don't know.

I just know that now, i've tons of cravings. For B&J's/Starbucks/Waffles/Chocolates.

Okay, i think i gotta get back to work, ciao! :)

Like bricks, it gets stacked.

Ookay! Weekends are here.

Usually, i'd be enjoying myself. Usually, i'd be watching whatever shows there is to watch. Usually, i'd be feeling pretty relaxed --But usually's not this week.

The clock's ticking, it won't stop. I've quite a lot of things waiting for me to address them and complete it, with 100% effort (at least, i hope it can be)

I'm actually trying to not panic. Trying to keep cool. But come to think of it, it would be these kind of times whereby it tests you. Don't you agree?

I know that i know, my capacity's gotta expand somehow. Stuff i know from JC are really helpful. But then again, i cannot, absolutely cannot let that make me complacent. Gotta be humble, gotta be adjust.

The assignments pile up. Yes, they do. But at least they are do-able. Just that sometimes, i let procrastination get in the way. And then.. You know... I'll be complaining about how it just piles up and up like crazy.

I seriously need to throw it away. Procrastination i mean.

Need time management skills more than ever.

Need divine help. Yes, i think that's the thing! Can't do it alone. I know i can't.

I mean, even at night. The things that are happening.. I don't understand why. I get really afraid. Deep down i know i've nothing to be afraid of. Because in the first place, He's the one that helped me got it away, in a matter of seconds.

As compared to the previous time.. It was much faster that it went away.

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Anyway! There's like this new gigantic fridge (twice the size of my previous one) in the house. Its making my whole kitchen looking like a wreckage.

But with twice the size = more food storage = me putting in more junk food in = me binge eating even more. HAHHAHHAHAH

And, oh, gotta go. Continue doing my assignments..

Getting tired...

Hmm lets see, its past midnight now and i'm blogging. That's a first.

Feeling kinda distracted, and kinda restless. Or maybe its just because i'm just too sleepy. Oh thank God tomorrow i start at 1. Or else i really might just drop my head on the table in class and snooze awayyyyyy.

I've a speech presentation tomorrow. And hmmm, i've already prepared the script for it last week. But haven't practiced at all. Maybe tomorrow morning (if i remember, that is.)

Assignments are already starting to pile up. Well, not because of my procrastination. I'm now trying really hard not to do stuff at the last minute. Gotta change that! Its really bad..

Now i'm actually supposed to be typing out a journal. And a 800 word one at that. Don't know why i have to keep emphasizing on the word count, but i just like doing that. Hah.

Edi & jes are still mugging hard for tomorrow. I'm kinda keeping them company in a way?

Last sunday, managed to catch X-men origins.



I'd say the show's pretty good. In terms of the action sequences. But then again, i think its too direct a way of just revealing wolverine's past. Very little twists to the storyline. In fact, if i'm not wrong, there's only one tiny unexpected twist toward the ending. Still, i like the action. And the fact that Hugh Jackman is muscular, although he's really old (you can tell by the countless wrinkles on his face) Cos they did quite a number of close-ups on him.

Oh well, that aside, i think i should really go and work on my journal. Like now.

So goodbye ya'll :D

I like balloons, i really do.

Hmm, haven't been blogging for quite awhile already. I know.

Assignments are starting to pile up pretty quick. Gotta get them all done by today, if only i could concentrate really hard and stop procrastinating or get distracted by whatever there is to be distracted by.

To do list:
#1 IS reflections - mon
#2 Ad campaign to research on - tues
#3 Sales pitch to memorize - thurs
#4 Prof com presentation - fri
#5 Soc psy 800-900 words 15% journal - 11 may, mon

Don't mind the list ya, its for my own note :P

Hmmm, yesterday's holiday came in at a pretty good time. I was able to sleep in, and that feels really really great! Then i spent the morning doing er.. I don't remember what.

But cg yesterday was good. And after that we all learnt how to make balloons from sheryl. The twisting noises of the balloons were really scary. Noises like eeeyk eeeyk eeeyk. Which is almost like, at the point of bursting. I mean, with all that twisting, its bound to burst if you're not careful, right? But still, it was pretty fun! Heh heh. Got to know how to make flowers! Its pretty ;)

Irene & i camwhoring with the flower balloons we made.





IRENE SHO CUTE! :B

Actually we also made doggies. But we gave them away to little kids ^^

Irene gave it to our neighbour while me, some random girl at the bus stop cos she was staring at it so much. The feeling of giving it away is nice. When they say giving makes you happier than taking, i know.

Oh, i think i should start working on my stuff. Before i start getting overwhelmed and complain about stress. But seriously, it doesn't make sense if i do that. Because in the first place its procrastinating that makes me end up with too many things to do.

And if i can finish the stuff today, hmm, lets reward me with b&j's? Nono, wolverine tomorrow!

HAHHAHHAHA :D